Those were her words to me as we both stood next to the double sink in the bathroom. It shocked me. I would not have described it that way. Sometimes I just wish it could be over. Sometimes, I wonder how I can go on...like today, feeling so tired. During these last few years of our Alzheimer's journey, I don't think I have even once thought "this is a real good time in my life."
So we are two worlds apart.
Can I build a bridge into her world . . . maybe I can lay down my thoughts and concerns . . . for once just live in this second without a thought about the moment before or the days and years ahead . . . just live in this moment. A moment of a smile. A moment when she eats the bread at communion and bursts out words "Hmm, that tastes good!" A moment of looking into the three daffodil's from our yard that are perched on the mantle of the bedroom. A moment in song. A moment of walking around the neighborhood with sun shinning on my face, walking hand in hand like young lovers. A moment of laughter. A moment of memory . . . so many of which are so tender and special over these nearly 38 years of marriage.
If I can enter the unadulterated moment, I will be in her world. And I too will say "this is a real good time in our lives." Help me Lord, for just a moment . . . one moment at a time. . . until that moment when all will be changed.
Psalm 118 verse 24
"This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it."
1 Corinthians 15:51-57
Listen, I will tell you a mystery! We will not all die, but we will all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. For this perishable body must put on imperishability, and this mortal body must put on immortality. When this perishable body puts on imperishability, and this mortal body puts on immortality, then the saying that is written will be fulfilled: "Death has been swallowed up in victory." "Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
So we are two worlds apart.
Can I build a bridge into her world . . . maybe I can lay down my thoughts and concerns . . . for once just live in this second without a thought about the moment before or the days and years ahead . . . just live in this moment. A moment of a smile. A moment when she eats the bread at communion and bursts out words "Hmm, that tastes good!" A moment of looking into the three daffodil's from our yard that are perched on the mantle of the bedroom. A moment in song. A moment of walking around the neighborhood with sun shinning on my face, walking hand in hand like young lovers. A moment of laughter. A moment of memory . . . so many of which are so tender and special over these nearly 38 years of marriage.
If I can enter the unadulterated moment, I will be in her world. And I too will say "this is a real good time in our lives." Help me Lord, for just a moment . . . one moment at a time. . . until that moment when all will be changed.
Psalm 118 verse 24
"This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it."
1 Corinthians 15:51-57
Listen, I will tell you a mystery! We will not all die, but we will all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. For this perishable body must put on imperishability, and this mortal body must put on immortality. When this perishable body puts on imperishability, and this mortal body puts on immortality, then the saying that is written will be fulfilled: "Death has been swallowed up in victory." "Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 comment:
Bob,
I pray that you can live in her moment! It is amazing that she feels that way! The good Lord bless you both!
Pier
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